18:18 - 01.02.05
received news about my friend who just got proposed to be his girlfriend. maybe proposed is the wrong word. but that wasn't the first thing that came to my mind. my initial reaction to it was, "i thought you are his girlfriend?" he asked her to be his girl after about a year of going out together, even going for a holiday and getting all mushy about stuff. for a year before he says, will you be my girl? but anyway, am just glad it's finally sorted out between them.
i've been feeling rather abandoned of late.. maybe the hormones' kicking in and am just in the need for extra attention. by him. but am not getting it. cos he's busy with stuff. with work. ok whatever. it's so tough when you need something so badly and you just don't get it? at the same time, i know i have to behave cos it's not as if he's gallavanting away, he's working for goodness sake. when he gets busy right, he totally ignores me like can't you even spare me a few minutes of your 15 hours of work?
i remembered reading an article in a bridal magazine. something about how to ensure there's always something to look forward to in your relationship. the usual stuff appeared, one of which is "take some time to gripe and complaint about daily stuff at work with your partner". appreantly, this helps you to release some tension after a hard day at work. if there was ever an opportunity for me to write in to aunt agony/kepo, it'll be:
dear majalah kahwin-kahwin,
i've taken your advice about talking about issues that i have after a day's work at the end of the day with my partner. i understand that it's supposed to help. but i think you forgot about something. you forgot to include that this point is only valid as a one way communication. meaning, only women can complaint and men just listen. my partner does not seem to understand this talking stuff as he think it's trivial and work should just be left in the office. so my conversation usually ends with him saying, "nothing much". i don't know about you but it's frustrating when you've said so much to him and all he tells/communicate with you is those two simple words.
what should i do? should i (1)take it as he's tired and say it's ok honey and i understand why you don't want to talk (2)get paranoid and ask is it me? (3)get angry and tell him good night, am tired (4)complain about the advice given by your magazine that does not seem to work
emotionally unstable,
dungme
*sigh*