11:59 - 21.05.05
i've decided to remove my wedding blog cos i found there's no use writing about anything. or getting excited about some things. obviously, everybody else in my family except me has an opinion about my wedding and their opinions are valid. their opinions matter and their opinions will be considered. i've given up on this thing. but no.... of course, someone else's opinion is better. and it's not even an out-of-the-norm venue. it's a CC for goodness sake. it's such a norm to do receptions there. but no.. cos it's not my decision. ok lah... no use fighting. i will not fight this. it's things like this that makes me decide, i want to get married quickly. i want to get out of this shit situation.
he thinks i am uptight. maybe i am. situations sometimes make me very stressed up and inevitably, make me very uptight. most of the time, i contribute it to ego. i don't like to admit my mistakes but i will definitely try to learn from them..
am quite pissed off with you. you actually dared to call my mum and ask her for money? look, you're the same age as me. as abled body like me. the only difference is our paper qualification. you go around complaining about life, hardship and your parents being naggy but have you every tried to do things in a decent and proper manner? i don't get you.. you can't even keep a job for one week! and you dare complain to my mum about it? grow up, girl.
am not sure if i am in the mood to go to the exhibition today. i'll have to think about skipping it. am just not in the mood now... and definitely not in the mood to be questioned about things. what i am in for is running. feel like going for a long good run...