01:05 - 09.07.05
strangely, am now experiencing colder weather in perth than i was on the road trip. maybe the heaters at the motels we stayed in were really good. hehhehe.. the roads were very clear and errmm... clean? passed wonderful big lands with sheeps, cows, horses and lotsa trees. big trees in a big national park where we got lost. thanks to me who read the map. yeah, that's something new.. gotta brush up on my map reading skills.
standing in between the southern ocean & indian ocean, i felt so blessed. seeing the whales ok, so i saw ONE whale. but it was still a sight. and the waves made me so emo. it was the perfect emo place at that moment. i thought about how crazy i was to be doing this. didn't realise the full impact of my actions till am here. missing my boy, my family and all. i've never been in this state of missing people back home. so, this feeling is foreign to me. to make matters worse, my dad fell again. *sigh* and am not there, you know. knowing my siblings.. ah well.. they've gotta learn somehow. when i was around to settle everything, am always angry at the situation cos i feel victimised. but being here and not knowing how bad the accident was for him is not a good feeling at all. in fact, it's horrible and i feel horrible for being here and inflicting all these negative emotions on everyone. and the boy's sick while am here... in his words, having fun. well, am just glad that the trip is coming to a close.
perth and the road trip were enjoyable. she has been a great travel companion for this trip and that's something that am really glad about. places that i went to, i would prolly not come back here to ever see them again. if u ask me if i'll ever pull this stunt again, i would have to say.. no. i hate to think that am not adventurous enough. it's still there but i'd rather go with him from now on. i just can't bear this distant.
tomorrow, i'll be dunking myself into chocolate as i make my way to the chocolate factory! i can't wait to get my hands on the chocolate.. samples.