18:34 - 26.07.05
oh well.. some things are just not meant to be. like how dumbledore died and how snape turned out to be the traitor. after all these years... how could you, snape? i had so much high hopes for you. to think that i had a small crush on you.. being dark and all. i finished harry porter yesterday after spending the whole day in bed and waking up only to stock up my supply of drinks, food and book. life is a bliss sometimes.. especially on weekdays. my parents were cleaning & painting the house and what was i doing? i was reading and eating. drinkin my wine too... i would have helped but looking at my parents, i thought they needed the time alone. they bond thru cleaning the house, believe it or not. for me.. i would rather bond in bed. hahahahah.. oooh... not much time left to that. how sweet.
YES! I AM VAIN! i am pathetically sad about how i look. i wish i had those legs. i wish i had her hair. this america's next top model thing is not doing any good to my karma. it's trashy bitchy and it's fun making fun of the boops bloopers on the girls. i've been so deprived of such trashy things, i really enjoyed antm. it's a joy to see some stupid things like half of them going to bowling cos they're under 21 instead of partying. but i simply wish i had their legs on some occasion. something tyra said was really nice last night. "i've been in the same place for many many times. i go home crying, sleep and wake up the next day. somebody's going to say yes to you someday." wow.. inspiring. well scripted, more like it. i wish i was more convinced.
another week without someone. it's driving me nuts. i wish i could just pick up the phone and talk to you. i just can't cos it just irritates me so much.