12:42 - 10.08.05
istana was pretty. if STB ever decided that the building should also go for the sake of economic advantages, i will not know what to say. if something as historic as stamford library can go, why not the old govt house?
i had a nice time last sunday despite getting stung by a bee. the stupid part of getting hurt at istana: zero knowledge medics.. oh wait, they were st john's. the great thing about getting hurt at istana and now having anyone to treat you: going to raffles hospital and be treated by a cute doctor. hehe... and i realised that A&E at raffles is way cheaper than our general hospitals. the so called "public" hospital actually charge higher than the private hospitals. maybe it's not so bad to be admitted into the private hospitals after all. my finger is still swollen. maybe i should pay another visit to dr faizal.. ;)
"am not ready for marriage. i can't stand your family. am not ready for fatherhood." lame. lame. lame. this thought actually bothered me more than anything else. how easy it is for a man to say such things when you have a wife and a child who's barely a year old. excuses, don't you think? should she forgive her husband for all the hurtful things he did? am not sure. but i do know that if it was me, i would prolly look at the issues behind it rather than what he did. there must be a cause to it. one does not just decide that he/she will cheat on his/her spouse upon waking up. in any case, if my partner ever decided to cheat on me, i just hope he'll be clever enough to cover his tracks. at the end of the day, what i don't know won't hurt me. and if there's anything that could hurt him for cheating on me, there's always his conscience that he has to work on. even if i were to find out, i just hope that it stays between 2 of us. it doesn't help when you have gossipers as your relatives.
is it wrong of me to pretend liking you? or should i be truthful abt my feelings?