12:39 - 18.08.05
so now, am going have to answer to your every queries. ooppss.. i meant, concerns about the wedding. oh gosh, even my mum is not so anal about things now. how about i make you my wedding planner? that would be nice, isn't it? i mean, you will know exactly what's goin on in my life, our lives. wowwey.. perfect yah? and why not, i make you everything there is in my life? like... tell you every little secrets i have?
some people just stick to your skin like a smudge that won't go off. how did that sound? nasty enough? honestly. you had your time, don't you think? now, let me enjoy mine without having to answer for my actions to you, of all people. i cannot do this ah. i simply hate to answer for my actions to other people. i don't owe you my life, get it? i don't hate you or anything close to that. i just wish you could stop asking me to explain my decisions to you. am NOT your girlfriend, ok? get off my back.
saw some really old photos last night with my parents. those were really good times. i miss it. i miss those times where i could just go on with life without having to worry about stuff. no one arguing with me. no one bothers me till i feel like muting them. i simply loved the family i had. note to oneself: loved with a capitol D. i wish i could turn back time and make these old people see why they shouldnt be fighting anymore. i wish i didn't go to my sis's house that particular night. i wish. i wish... oh well... shit happens. i have to move on as i bring myself to another phase of my life soon enough. we were laughin at my nieces for looking so cute and bubbly last time. oh really... they looked so good on camera! was smiling to how good looking my dad was when he was younger. maybe, when am free, i will scan some of those and put it up here. just helps me remember those happy times the family had.