13:27 - 03.10.05
i think am gonna be sick. woke up this morning with a heavy head, stomach pains, aching neck and running nose. i seriously think am gonna be sick. apart from the unfinished pile of work that i have, i've to nurse this sick feeling at my desk. you know what it feels like? it's a bit like... wanting to rip your heart, lungs, stomach out and give it a good beating out in the sun. when you're satisfied with the results, you'll put it back in the right places. only, you'll soon realise that the only way for you to do all that is to die first. yeah.. i truly feel like leaving all the shit in the office and go home to my cats. jaguar, lola and spot. what a happy family.
talking about family, i told the boy how glad i am to be moving in with him when we get married. strange right? this morning, i woke up and told myself that maybe i want to have kids straight after getting married. haha... must be the illness that's gone into my brain.
i didnt do much over the weekends except for work. the boy commented on something last night that made me laugh. he said, "you're becoming like a tai-tai now, just sitting in the car." to which i replied, "no... i was busy working today! had high-tea at mandarin hotel!" i couldnt stop laughing cos i sounded so ridiculous saying that. claiming i was working while enjoying mindless entertainment at the hotel. drinks, chips, music, belly dancing. all the makciks in the world unite when there are no men!