11:59 - 25.10.05
i would have preferred kahlen to win it. not sure what naima has that kahlen didn't. it was really nice to have my nieces over at my place last night. :) wish mira could just stop shouting wish they could stay longer. it's been so long... and am not sure if i'll muster enough courage to go their house this year. last year, no. this year, not sure. maybe if he skedaddle from that house, yes, maybe i will. hah. he's such an ass.
my parents advised me to forget about the whole matter and come the wedding day, i should just go to the jerk him and offer the salam. they said, after all, he's you BIL. ohhh purr-lease mother... i did just that when he came to meet us in the hospital. and you know what he did? he actually pulled his hand away from me like i was some dirty little thing. am i gonna do the same thing again? yes, i will offer my salam and am sure by that time, i will be sincere about it... if he does the same thing again to me, i have nothing to lose cos it'll be the last one. ever. and God only knows how much he made me and my parents cry.
ok, obviously, am not over it. i guess, i never will be. the only thing am grateful to him for was the fact that he gave me 3 beautiful nieces to be with. other than that, errr... there's no other than that. this year, am making it a point to not seeing him at all. which means: 1)i'll have to make myself disappear when he's at my house. 2)excuse myself from any family outings/gatherings 3)make myself busy with my future in laws gatherings/outings instead. ok, that settles it.
can i just say that our government can be ridiculous sometimes?