13:01 - 19.12.05
"i know what you're thinking"
you do? that's strange cos i never said a word. it's even more exciting that you could guess how i felt. we always marvel at that ability of yours, remember? or am i just too easy to read? does my face say a lot? am so confused by it that i cried myself to sleep last night. this feeling of wanting it to happen and at the same time, afraid that it might not ever happen. it's not your fault, truly. it's mine. it's been me all this while. when you have some unfulfilled dreams, shit happens. it seems like nothing's going my way at all this time. well, maybe not all. i constantly forget about you and am sorry.
it's just that this stupid wish of mine won't go away.
i enjoyed myself thoroughly last night but i shouldn't have listened to what she had to say. shouldn't have.
and to dad: can't you just leave me alone?